it's been so long i've succumbed to run dat red line of misery to sail the seas  of abuse and self destruction. A place to wacth all my fears reveal themselves to taunt and ridicule me a plce where there's a slip from reality and everything becomes blurry and confusing like a maze u can never escape from a puzzle u can never put together, a heart that will never beat again.
 i had a dream once that i was loved, that i could trust and i could be content for the rest of my life but even dreams come with a facade, even dreams lie.nothing compares to the slaps you collect from reality though. nothing good ever lasts.
 u came to me and changed me, clearly i did nothing to you but made u able to fool yourself and others longer,  but mer from the person i was to who u wanted me to be and i mindlessly obliged because of a fault, a misconception, a delusion of love, this simple word with it comes so much destruction- the lies. the tears, the screams, the inadeqaucy, the doubt, the self badgery, the hate.
 we were both fools and we both tried but each of our cries unheard by the other, i gave my life, i gave my love, i gave my trust, i gave my honor and u took it for granted u killed me in vain and i watched and proped myself onto your mantle knelt down and whispered kill me now. too see you disrespect me infront of ppl who knew and respected me and laughed in my face i applaud you though for your honesty but you took it too far...you had no clue wat was going on before u saw and made deudctions. u didn't care to ask me but u had to prove you're self righteous. you saw me cry and breakdown, cry, cut and gnaw at flesh but u didint care you smiled and laughed thinkin well revenge is mine and u'll suffer and i felt the scorch of a thousand suns and i promised to never love again. u've become a fallen angel u've finally fallen from grace listen to the sound of crashing concrete, listen to the sound the sky crashing down worse than any thunderous storm or tidal waves to a shore listen to ur downfall, such a pity.
 to think that i held my defenses up for so long and the minute i was givin in and goin to humble myself u boldly stripped me bare of it is something i cannot forgive or forget. a part of me hates you for your ignorance and part of me thanx you for it beacuse i know i had to endure this to become stronger. my redemption comes now as i have u on ur knees beggin me to tolerate you and i don't care anymore i kno i will never love again like i did with you. you have to live with the fact that you will NEVER have me agian...you had for as long as u did but u took me for a fool but little do you kno the game's on you because i don't need your parasitic attraction, i don't need your belligerence, i don't need your excess baggage and i dont need to bleed for you anymore...my heart has once returned where it should have been all this time to a solid state and cold as ice, trust no one and love no one for it doesn't exist jump aboard my train of the 'destruction of all moral fibre'. live by the motto 'use and abuse' don't give in and don't give out take what you want and discard when through...my redemtion is here...you know fully well who you are...i will always love you but i will always hate you. think bac wat makes u any different from six feet or any other loser out there? love? reputation? or is it determination? your one in the same million mindless sheep out there u love ppl like an addiction it's either good sex or good game grow up, be real, i say my redemtion is here because i got wat i wanted and i was strong enough to say no. i dnt need ppl mayb sex and chocolate sumtimes but hey i get that but you cant, i've screwed u over like that you can't touch another because it's not me, whose name is carved into your skin and whose carved into mine? who made u cut urslef with your own blade u promised to never taint? who made you weak? so i declare my redemption is here games on you fool. lesson learnt nex time u wanna mess with some1 make sure it's not me...i hope u read this and cry, i hope you read this and you feel the same way i do, i hope you hate yourself as i much as i do, i hope the black parade swings your way to give you that taste you've alwys yearned. not a sip jus a taste so you remain here to relive this, to remember my dampened spirit, to lock yourself in this sacrificial tomb and only wen i give in to crawl back to me sayin i love you...listen to the rhythm of the war drums they're not too far beyond so close your eyes and go to sleep play dead i will be there to protect you no more. - MY REDEMPTION IS HERE!