About Me
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I am one of the most disillusioned people who have ever met. I think life sucks-No not really you idiot. I'm a strange mass of odds and ends a hashfail of pesonality traits of real people. Nothing about me is original nor am i sterotypical of those around me. I am unique in that i have no outstanding traits that i can claim as my own (and therefore i suffer great psychological stress in wanting to differentiate.)I am a slave to my hereditry and environment who wishes so desperately to break free.
The most i can do to discribe myself is to share my intersts. (check below)I'm terrible with names and faces that's most likely why i have so few of what you call friends. I like meeting new people just find it dificult to maintain any connections that might form... yeah i know what you're thinkin "issues."
I wont go as far as to say i'm a christian,not in its true sense all the time, that would make me hipocritical but i will say i try to be one without reservations.
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Interests
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this hard... hmmm anime straight from japan ,animation,real rock the music not the culture (dont worry about if you dont know what i mean, i dont know either), 80's music, 70's music, 90's music, classical anything but i hate antiquity, any kind of weather, documetaries, natural scenery-not just grass, time alone, good sci-fi, romance comedy movies that actually have a point, action movies with, bruce lee,jet li, jackie chan, tony jaa, that silver fox dude, other martial artist, 80's movies, 90's movies, adam sandler movies, meg ryan movies, army movies, hacker movies- i'll get back to this.
Drawing as a hobby, not as an art, poetry, songwriting, writing on a whole, reading. Object Oriented Programming, python programming language, c , java, visual basic. TCP/IP how computer networks work. History, historical misteries, strange science facts. Science on a whole. Social interactions, the workings of the mind. Philosophy, theology, quantum physics. Renewable energy.
this getting to long....
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Favorite Movies
I'LL GET BACK TO THIS IT MIGHT TAKE A LONG WHILE.
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Favorite TV Shows
Hmm... how far back to go...sesame street, blues clues, mc guyver, the sentinel,7 days , the crow, the third wave,24, monk, the dead zone, criminal minds, 3lbs, the pretender, friends,king of queens, sienfield, simpsons, yes dear, fresh prince, invisible man, nowhere man, psi factor, fact or fiction,profiler, CSI, numb3rs, twillight zone, alfred hitchcock, psych, x files, roswell, smallville, any discovery channel history channel or national geographic show/documetary, what used to be tech tv. Naruto, bleach, animatrix, what some people call samurai x, transformers beast macines beast wars, technoman, samurai champloo, vampire hunter d e and f... jus kiddin, apple seed, akira, any cyberpunk anime, ghost in a shell, case closed, DBZ, inyuasha, gundam wing, ed edd and eddy, jimmy neutron, what johnny bravo used to be, back to the future, the batman franchise, the spiderman franchise, the superman franchise, teen titan, static shock... bible stories animated....this list is gettin to long..
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Journal
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Does she think of me? I hope not... A waste of time is what I am. Whoever she is whatever names i apply to her is irrelevant. Nothing will happen. Nothing untill i face her in tell her i love her. I've said it. For the first time in years. Stifling the STALKER in hopes he would die... but he is so much in me and i him inseparable in fates. He must heal and so must I. The wolf must rise above the influence of his predesesor the base programming is flawed and must be debugged. R' must also be reprogrammed though it may be painful it is required... most definitely required. The ONE will help. He always has, always will. I pray for the will of perseverence for now in my present state i lack the ability to stay on course. An inability that will kill me if left to grow unaffected. Yet the ONE will be there to guide and carry me along.
I long to be among the others the unbroken. The torn and unaffected they haunt me... the lonely and alone connot mend. If i must be the ONE to rise above this i must do it now.... Time has no meaning only intentions and will can determine what I may become. Not will i? but am i?
How long must I suffer the innocent. How long must i allow myself to suffer the indignity i was never meant to endure. How long must i carry a cross i was never given to bear? Though the answer is apparent in front of me i lack the will to defeat it... i suffer in vain... not hearing the words of the SON 'not my will but thine' it's that easy... but i an that fargone... that paranoid... that unwilling to trust... that close to death... but life beckons... it awaits an answer.
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